Firstly, I disconnected the webcam from the PC and stuck it to my laptop. At first it didn't work, at which point my sis told me it hasn't in ages. Then I managed to get the mic part of it to work, and then I got the camera to work. The problem.. they don't work at the same time. I have to reinstall it to get the other part to work.
I've been thinking about starting to vlog. I already have a channel on youtube, and I occasionally post video's I've made, but I do want to vlog. Negative points:
- Need the webcam to work both ways
- Need more confidence
As yet, vlogging is not an option. I have to try fix the webcam more first. Btw my channel is http://uk.youtube.com/user/xXxachiexXx so subscribe xP.
I came from the hike in a very crappy mood with a severe need to be alone and cry.. which due to a series of unfortunate events was not possible. [thats a great read if ur interested] Anyway I came home and went on youtube to check out the fiveawesome vlogs' daily input. And today, both fiveawesomeguys and fiveawesome girls had the most inspirational and true-to-self vlogs I have ever seen. Here are the links, you should really check these vids out, my mood really improved after watching them! [it would also help cos im gna talk abt them in a mo]
italktosnakes (a member of the former who responded to today's vid): http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=je5UHUFTb8c
Those vids made me rethink what I'm doing right now, I too am scared of the dark. I keep on imagining that someone's hiding there to get me. I get totally freaked out by an empty house, being the only one inside esp when it's getting dark or I'm in the shower freaks me out. Having dogs does three things: creates random noise that freaks you out; sometimes worries you cos you wonder if the "person" creating the noise got to them first... it doesn't give all that much comfort. Theyre too friendly anyway!
On another note, I'm kind of frustrated atm. Many reasons contribute to this, and I feel like I lost control on things I once knew (in a bad way, not a laying them down way); I'm feeling disrespected; I'm feeling ignored; and I am also occasionally feeling left out. Most things are entirely circumstantial and partially my fault, but there are a couple of things that are completely out of my reach and in others' hands. I'm also feeling pressured to look a particular way, I've lost confidence in my self and how I look. I was talking to Amy today about something of this manner and, even though everyone has some bodypart they don't like, some people's object of frustration is more visible, some people are more affected by it, some people take to heart stupid comments. I know I do.
Another thing is, today at the hike, everyone sort of split up.. I was looking forward to spending time with the people I call my friends, but we didn't spend that much time with each other after all.. we were constantly separated. By this I mean everyone separated.. I barely said hi to some D-Group buddies, I barely spoke to old friends, I hardly had a conversation with any of my closest friends...
I just love this pic! I don't really know why, it just looks so peaceful and... happy. Symbolically, you could say it symbolises the walk of life, the stone is a milestone - an event of great importance maybe, or another chapter in their life. The sky could be the fact that they have no limit to reaching whatever they want to. The craggy hilltops could be opportunities, they could show that they can reach the top if they tried, cos they have the abilities and talents to do so. And finally the two could symbolise friends caring for each other through the walk/trek/voyage.
And, I gotta say thanks to all those - esp Jesus - who have carried me when i was weak, who have lifted me when I fell, who have listened to me whine and complain and still stick by and ultimately made me smile again! Thanks guys =] loads of love and prayers coming your way =]
God bless you!
EDIT: Another of the fiveawesomegirls posted a video on the same topic which is also really gd... http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=2S2iVpziiXQ